My husband lost his battle with cancer last night. I went into a state of shock, and began my survival mode. I cant even begin to fully grasp that he will no longer be coming home. I no longer have my lover, my best friend..... Any time I begin to think of him I get nauseous. I am happy that he is finally at peace...... but there are also way to many other emotions that I gotta deal with before I am at peace.
I love you Michael.......R.I.P. 5/7/2010
I am so sorry for your loss. So many reminders of his presence. His coffee cup. His glasses. His television show. His clothes. You think you hear him...smell him..."feel" him.
ReplyDeleteYou don't know how to laugh. You believe you never will again. Someday, when you least expect it, you will hear y. ourself laugh out loud and it will startle you! Then you are really beginning to heal.
For now, go with the sorrow. Just remember to take care of yourself. Eat right. Find someone to talk to, or a group. Alone is not your friend. Sometimes it is -- but you need others to listen.
Take care of yourself, above all.
-Iris