He's Gone

My husband lost his battle with cancer last night. I went into a state of shock, and began my survival mode. I cant even begin to fully grasp that he will no longer be coming home. I no longer have my lover, my best friend..... Any time I begin to think of him I get nauseous. I am happy that he is finally at peace...... but there are also way to many other emotions that I gotta deal with before I am at peace.


I love you Michael.......R.I.P. 5/7/2010

The End

I can barely write, so I am just gonna get to the point. My husband is dying. We have maybe a week or two until he is gone. My heart is breaking to watch this. I do not know what I am gonna do. I have no plans. I am torn between letting him go and begging for him to stay. I know he will be in a better place. No pain, no cancer.

This is all I can write for now. It hurts to much to be grown-up.